'Last week, Abdul Hamid al-Yousef lost the loves of his life.
His wife Dalal and their nine-month-old twins, Aya and Ahmed, were among the dozens killed as a result of a suspected chemical attack on the Syrian city of Khan Sheikhoun - a tragedy Abdul Hamid still cannot fathom, and a trauma he says he will never overcome.
"It was a huge disaster," Yousef says, before emotion overtakes him.
In all, more than 20 members of the Yousef family died on April 4 - a day in which horrific images like the ones showing Abdul Hamid cradling the bodies of his dead children shocked the world.
Speaking to Al Jazeera from Reyhanli, Turkey, Yousef, who blames the government of Syrian President Bashar al-Assad for the attack, said his pain is unrelenting.
"I'm going to try, as much as possible, to fight the regime through the media," he said.
"I'm not going to abandon my country. God willing, I'll return to Syria - because we started our revolution six years ago and we still demand freedom and justice." '